like a fool, ive been searching for it

like an infant, ive been suckling my mouth in my sleep, hungry for it

like it wasnt right here

not behind me, or under my nose

but right where i stand

it was inside me

the very fact that i exist is proof of it

even if i came to be by accident

or coincidence

even if i was conceived by love that may exist no longer

there is someone in love with me

someone who loved me this whole time

and here i go crying about things unrequited

not knowing ive been ignoring my most devoted lover